A Return to….what?

Since arriving home from the Camino I have attempted to write new posts for this blog with very little luck.  I have at least six started that I never finished – they just didn’t seem to express what I wanted to convey.  Probably because I don’t really know what I want to convey.

Because really, what do you say upon returning from a year of adventures? I don’t know if it’s possible to “sum it all up” – I still feel like the whole thing is just too raw, too recent to reflect on at this point.  Many lessons learned might not even surface for a few more months – or I might not recognize them as such for years.

The two biggest changes I made are within myself – and they are changes not meant to be posted on a blog.  One has been discussed with a few friends, the other is something I’m holding close to my heart.  But it tumbled out of my mouth when talking to a friend a couple weeks ago, quite unexpectedly.  I wasn’t holding it in on purpose.  I’m not one for secrets, so I surprised myself by holding in this revelation for as long as I did (a mere six weeks).  And then surprised myself again by the choice of person I chose to reveal it to.  I wondered why that person, of all those I know, would be the one to whom my heart would choose to share such a personal thing.

Honestly, it doesn’t matter.  I could see not revealing it again for a long time. It’s not something that anyone would outwardly notice.   But thanks to this insight, I’ve noticed the change in who I am nearly every day.

So there it is…

I’m not sure what will come of this blog, the way I write it, if I write it.  I make no promises.  Perhaps I’ll get back into “the groove” and update you all on my adventures in my new hometown.  Perhaps I’ll move on to other things.  Perhaps I just needed to write and say, “I have no big message after returning from my sabbatical.”  Perhaps that’s because I didn’t really return – I didn’t go back to the apartment I left, to the town I left, to the jobs I left.  I returned – but to what?

7 Comments Add yours

  1. Chris Slater says:

    Rebecca, it sounds as if you’re in digestion mode which is a healthy necessity after your year of action. It was a great pleasure to meet you today and we hope you’ll continue to grace us camino-heads with your presence at ABC on Tuesdays (more info on http://www.americanpilgrims.org especially hospitalero training).
    Ultreia
    Chris

    1. Thanks Chris. It was so nice to reflect on the experience with other pilgrims. I can assure you I will return to ABC:) And thanks for the link. At this point I’m thinking I’ll wait til they return to the East Coast in 2014, but you never know…:)

  2. Leslie Quick says:

    Hi Rebecca,

    I was just thinking of you this week.

    I happened to visit a relative in Chicago and we were discussing the finer points of clutter busting techniques.

    And of course, I thought of you!

    Then on the way home in the airport, I picked up a book called The Happiness Project by Gretchen Rubin.

    I’ve only just started to read it, but already, your name is all over the chapter about clutter-clearing!

    Will you be pursuing that avenue for income?

    Hope you are well and enjoying your new residence!

    Leslie

    1. Added the book to my list – thanks Leslie. Am indeed pursuing that avenue and a few others. 🙂

  3. Wendy says:

    Hi Becky!
    Keep on blogging…I look forward to reading and in the process getting to know you better. Thanks for the time together…for fitting me in. Love you, W

    1. And thanks for being such an awesome godmother and friend. I love the conversations we’re able to have. Do come visit me in Asheville sometime:)

  4. Glenda says:

    I enjoy your blog, Rebecca, and I’m sure that you will have more adventures to write about even if not as large as the Camino. You are a writer and if we don’t read your work on this blog, you will continue to write and we will read your word somewhere. Best of luck in Asheville.

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