Since arriving home from the Camino I have attempted to write new posts for this blog with very little luck. I have at least six started that I never finished – they just didn’t seem to express what I wanted to convey. Probably because I don’t really know what I want to convey.
Because really, what do you say upon returning from a year of adventures? I don’t know if it’s possible to “sum it all up” – I still feel like the whole thing is just too raw, too recent to reflect on at this point. Many lessons learned might not even surface for a few more months – or I might not recognize them as such for years.
The two biggest changes I made are within myself – and they are changes not meant to be posted on a blog. One has been discussed with a few friends, the other is something I’m holding close to my heart. But it tumbled out of my mouth when talking to a friend a couple weeks ago, quite unexpectedly. I wasn’t holding it in on purpose. I’m not one for secrets, so I surprised myself by holding in this revelation for as long as I did (a mere six weeks). And then surprised myself again by the choice of person I chose to reveal it to. I wondered why that person, of all those I know, would be the one to whom my heart would choose to share such a personal thing.
Honestly, it doesn’t matter. I could see not revealing it again for a long time. It’s not something that anyone would outwardly notice. But thanks to this insight, I’ve noticed the change in who I am nearly every day.
So there it is…
I’m not sure what will come of this blog, the way I write it, if I write it. I make no promises. Perhaps I’ll get back into “the groove” and update you all on my adventures in my new hometown. Perhaps I’ll move on to other things. Perhaps I just needed to write and say, “I have no big message after returning from my sabbatical.” Perhaps that’s because I didn’t really return – I didn’t go back to the apartment I left, to the town I left, to the jobs I left. I returned – but to what?
RenaissanceRebecca 
Rebecca, it sounds as if you’re in digestion mode which is a healthy necessity after your year of action. It was a great pleasure to meet you today and we hope you’ll continue to grace us camino-heads with your presence at ABC on Tuesdays (more info on http://www.americanpilgrims.org especially hospitalero training).
Ultreia
Chris
Thanks Chris. It was so nice to reflect on the experience with other pilgrims. I can assure you I will return to ABC:) And thanks for the link. At this point I’m thinking I’ll wait til they return to the East Coast in 2014, but you never know…:)
Hi Rebecca,
I was just thinking of you this week.
I happened to visit a relative in Chicago and we were discussing the finer points of clutter busting techniques.
And of course, I thought of you!
Then on the way home in the airport, I picked up a book called The Happiness Project by Gretchen Rubin.
I’ve only just started to read it, but already, your name is all over the chapter about clutter-clearing!
Will you be pursuing that avenue for income?
Hope you are well and enjoying your new residence!
Leslie
Added the book to my list – thanks Leslie. Am indeed pursuing that avenue and a few others. 🙂
Hi Becky!
Keep on blogging…I look forward to reading and in the process getting to know you better. Thanks for the time together…for fitting me in. Love you, W
And thanks for being such an awesome godmother and friend. I love the conversations we’re able to have. Do come visit me in Asheville sometime:)
I enjoy your blog, Rebecca, and I’m sure that you will have more adventures to write about even if not as large as the Camino. You are a writer and if we don’t read your work on this blog, you will continue to write and we will read your word somewhere. Best of luck in Asheville.