A Return to….what?

Since arriving home from the Camino I have attempted to write new posts for this blog with very little luck.  I have at least six started that I never finished – they just didn’t seem to express what I wanted to convey.  Probably because I don’t really know what I want to convey.

Because really, what do you say upon returning from a year of adventures? I don’t know if it’s possible to “sum it all up” – I still feel like the whole thing is just too raw, too recent to reflect on at this point.  Many lessons learned might not even surface for a few more months – or I might not recognize them as such for years.

The two biggest changes I made are within myself – and they are changes not meant to be posted on a blog.  One has been discussed with a few friends, the other is something I’m holding close to my heart.  But it tumbled out of my mouth when talking to a friend a couple weeks ago, quite unexpectedly.  I wasn’t holding it in on purpose.  I’m not one for secrets, so I surprised myself by holding in this revelation for as long as I did (a mere six weeks).  And then surprised myself again by the choice of person I chose to reveal it to.  I wondered why that person, of all those I know, would be the one to whom my heart would choose to share such a personal thing.

Honestly, it doesn’t matter.  I could see not revealing it again for a long time. It’s not something that anyone would outwardly notice.   But thanks to this insight, I’ve noticed the change in who I am nearly every day.

So there it is…

I’m not sure what will come of this blog, the way I write it, if I write it.  I make no promises.  Perhaps I’ll get back into “the groove” and update you all on my adventures in my new hometown.  Perhaps I’ll move on to other things.  Perhaps I just needed to write and say, “I have no big message after returning from my sabbatical.”  Perhaps that’s because I didn’t really return – I didn’t go back to the apartment I left, to the town I left, to the jobs I left.  I returned – but to what?

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7 thoughts on “A Return to….what?

  1. Rebecca, it sounds as if you’re in digestion mode which is a healthy necessity after your year of action. It was a great pleasure to meet you today and we hope you’ll continue to grace us camino-heads with your presence at ABC on Tuesdays (more info on http://www.americanpilgrims.org especially hospitalero training).
    Ultreia
    Chris

    • Thanks Chris. It was so nice to reflect on the experience with other pilgrims. I can assure you I will return to ABC:) And thanks for the link. At this point I’m thinking I’ll wait til they return to the East Coast in 2014, but you never know…:)

  2. Hi Rebecca,

    I was just thinking of you this week.

    I happened to visit a relative in Chicago and we were discussing the finer points of clutter busting techniques.

    And of course, I thought of you!

    Then on the way home in the airport, I picked up a book called The Happiness Project by Gretchen Rubin.

    I’ve only just started to read it, but already, your name is all over the chapter about clutter-clearing!

    Will you be pursuing that avenue for income?

    Hope you are well and enjoying your new residence!

    Leslie

  3. Hi Becky!
    Keep on blogging…I look forward to reading and in the process getting to know you better. Thanks for the time together…for fitting me in. Love you, W

  4. I enjoy your blog, Rebecca, and I’m sure that you will have more adventures to write about even if not as large as the Camino. You are a writer and if we don’t read your work on this blog, you will continue to write and we will read your word somewhere. Best of luck in Asheville.

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