On Aging – or Not

“I have someone you should meet,” she told me.  “She’s your age.”  She stopped and stared at me for a second.  “Well, I don’t know how old you are, but she’s twenty-six and you look about her age.”

“I turn thirty-six tomorrow actually.”

“No!” she said, with a stunned look on her face.  “I thought you were ten years younger!”

“Thank you,” I said, smiling.

I was roaming around an art gallery when this conversation took place.  It was my “birthday eve.”  I had never thought to celebrate the eve of my birth, but I’d just had a cup of tea with a wizened elder of the Asheville community who suggested it.  So upon leaving her apartment downtown, I decided to see where life took me.

I wandered down Haywood Street  and saw the display window for the Updraft Gallery around the corner on Walnut.  I’d wandered in there the previous week.  Back then, they were still getting the gallery set up and I talked to one of the owners about how they came to get the space and start the gallery.

I saw from a sign in the window that they’d had their opening the previous night, and I would have attended had I not had twenty-five people at my house to celebrate my aforementioned birthday.

Despite the fact it was 7pm on a Sunday night, the lights were still on and people were looking around.  I walked past, but my intuition told me (more than once) to turn around and go in.  So I did.

Andrew, the glassmaker I’d met the previous week, was demonstrating his technique to four customers.  As he did so, I took my time looking around.  I slowed down and spent long moments taking in each of the works around me.

As usual, I found myself staring at one piece in particular that brought tears to my eyes.  This happens every time I roam galleries alone. I can’t explain what it was about the piece that moved me to tears.  All I can say is that I’m no longer surprised when this happens.  I simply give in, take a deep breath, and keep staring at the image in front of me – in this case a full, bright moon hanging in a dark blue night sky, over ocean waves.

I eventually moved on and watched Minna, another of the owners, working on a piece of jewelry.  “Hello quiet girl,” she said to me. I smiled. Quiet girl? Me? Oh how I loved the feeling that flooded me when she said that.  It brought me back to my childhood when “quiet girl” was exactly who I was.

“Hello,” I responded.

I inquired about the piece she was working on, and then made my way to the back of the gallery.

After the other customers left, I found myself in conversation with Minna and Andrew.  Topics ranged from Eleanor Roosevelt’s quote about the present being a gift, to the difficulties of making a living as an artist, to the trials and tribulations of being a mother of grown children or a father of a toddler.

At some point in the conversation Minna decided I should meet her young friend, and thus the earlier conversation about my age.

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Some years ago, I saw on Oprah’s web site that they were looking for people who looked ten years younger than they actually were.  At the time, I thought I could only pass for only 8 years younger, so I didn’t write in.

Ever since then, though, I’ve thought about the questions Oprah would ask me on the topic of aging, and what I’d say in response.

Oprah: So, Rebecca, why do you think it is you look ten years younger than you really are?

Rebecca: Well, I think it has something to do with having done what I want to do for the last thirteen years. Being unhappy with your life doesn’t make you look younger.  But when you live a life completely by your own choice, you have a certain optimism and a certain outlook that makes you happy to be where you are – and people that are happy, I think, usually look younger than they really are.  And feel younger, too.

Oprah: And you also mentioned something to my producers about kids and marriage.

Rebecca: Yes.  I have neither.  I’ve heard both age you.  Not that I’ve chosen to be childless and single to look younger.  But I’m sure it helps on some level.

The married women in the audience, who have children at home, would nod and smile, secretly wanting to kill me for that last remark.

But I do wonder about aging and why it is I’m doing it a little slower than some people.  Maybe it’s because I really don’t care? Would I care if people thought I looked ten years older than I am? Or if the lines that appear when I smile were always present?

I don’t mind telling people I’m 36.  It’s a number.  Some people, at 36, look 45, or 35, or 25.  What causes it? What does it matter?

I was in a friend’s wedding a few weeks ago.  I sat in a chair while the hairdresser talked to me about the style I wanted for the occasion.  “On which side do you part your hair?” she asked.

“On the right usually.”

She did that and then stopped.  “Oh, no, we can’t do that.  You have a gray hair there.”  She proceeded to move my part.

Seriously? I thought.  One gray hair?  You’re going to change a hairstyle over one hair? It’s her profession.  I guess she knows what she’d doing.  Do that many people really care so much about one gray hair?  Life is really too short for such concerns.  At least, my life is too short for such concerns.

I’m the brunette on the right…the one whose single gray hair is conspicuously concealed.

 

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14 thoughts on “On Aging – or Not

  1. What a great day it was! I love this pic. I remember what you said as we were snapping pics in TC’s living room, to take a moment and appreciate that in 40/50 yrs we’ll look back and know how great we looked in our YOUTH. 😉

  2. just one grey hair? one should be so lucky… (said the married woman of a 3 year old, with FAR more than one grey on her head)

    isn’t it funny that while we’re young, we strive to be thought of as older and wiser than our years or our appearance? And while we age, we grieve the loss of our youth, and spend BILLIONS to look younger?

    I’m not dying mine, although the greys are rapidly multiplying. My dad died with dark hair still on his head. Cherish that one grey hair. They’re each hard-earned, and are a privilege that so many are denied. My goal in this life is to leave it with a head full of silver, not a single drop of dye to be found.

  3. Rebecca, you do indeed look much younger than your years, but I think you have the answer to why. No kids, no husband to take care of – just living a carefree existense.
    I can tell, although I’d give all I have to have my Barry here, that having no one but one’s self to look after, makes a big difference.
    In the past few months, I have been told that I look younger, that my skin is so pretty and just simple compliments like “you look so good.” After three long years of mourning, I have turned the corner and am taking better care of me. I am smiling more now. Maybe just finding joy in life is what makes the difference. The happier we are the younger, healthier, and prettier we are. Love this post.

  4. HI SWEETIE….(ALIAS QUIET GIRL THERE IN ROW 2)……..NOW, I THINK I LOOK 10 YEARS YOUNGER THAN I AM ,BECAUSE THE FAT I HAVE PUSHES OUT THE WRINKLES AND SMOOTHES OUT MY SKIN…….YOU LOOK GREAT, AS DO ALL YOUR SISTERS , MOM AND BROTHER…..SO MAYBE , IT IS THE ITALIAN IN YOUR DELIGHTFUL BLOOD LINE……LOVE…MRS.F

  5. Ha…grey…bring it on!!!! You did indeed discover the secret Becky. Living life and taking time to enjoy and experience it. I’ve seen many older people who, even with wrinkles, act and look youthful because of their attitude. Keep on writing, and I will keep on reading.

  6. “I do wonder about aging and why it is I’m doing it a little slower than some people.” Good genes? (That’s the realist in me talking to you.)

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